Back at the start of June, I found out that we're expecting a baby! How cool is that?! So, we're having a baby and we also decided not to tell anyone until after we flew to Detroit. We wanted my family to know first. Unfortunately, man plans- g-d laughs. At the start of July, my Bubba (grandmother) had a stroke. As soon as I heard the word "hospice", I booked a flight and flew home. Craig joined me a few days later and we made it just in time to say goodbye.
Needless to say, July is now my least favorite month... EVER.
I actually only flew home a week ahead of schedule. I was supposed to go on vacation but pushed it up a week to spend some time with my Bubba. I don't think many people have the bond that my cousins and I had with our grandmother. She was our rock - sometimes overbearing but she always meant well. It kills me that even though she knew that we are having a baby, I wasn't the one to tell her and she didn't have a few weeks of joy. I robbed her of that and that guilt sits with me. It may be self-inflicted but it still sits.
Her death made me start re-evaluating my life. I'm suffering from a bout of depression now, it started when she had her stroke. Re-evaluating my life has been more difficult than it was in the past. All of a sudden, the things I wanted to do in 2 years, I want to do now. Which makes work VERY difficult... because what I want to do I can't actually do for another 2 years.
Anyway, the bad month ended and the new month is beginning. In Hebrew, we call it Rosh Hodesh (Rosh = head; Hodesh= month). It literally means the head of the month. I have quite a bit to look forward to this month. August 8th is my 1 year wedding anniversary. It also marks the end of my first trimester (THANK G-D!) and the start of my 2nd trimester.
What do YOU have to look forward to?
- A Prefense review and giveaway
- More coupons
- Recipes galore... tailored to fit hot temperatures and pregnancy
- reviews, reviews, oh and some life lessons...
2 comments:
Ahhh, Hilly I'm so excited for you!! When is your baby due? I'm looking forward to pregnancy posts and pics!
But I'm so sorry that your grandmother passed away. I can relate in many ways to the relationship with your grandmother...Gram passing away really brought a lot of things in my life into focus, and helped me find direction. Five years after she passed away, I'm still doing things that I know she always wanted me to. It makes me feel like she's still with me!
Congrats on your pregnancy! I hope things start getting better for you.
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